[[*Fading To Black*]]

Saturday, June 20, 2009

[[Busted]]

And

I think I'm losing it

My being not-prone-to-being-sick habit

I mean

I don't get sick the normal way

the way normal humans do

Well

Actually I do but I'm more or less prone to it

I get sick by

Stress or lack of sleep or even crying too much

dumb huh?

I must be the weirdest kid on Earth

Correction.

Weirdest kid in the universe

And far far beyond that

My head is killing me

Panadols don't work anymore

I'm sleep deprived

And over worked

And emotionally stressed

apparently

I have people to blame for it

Shan't mention

They wouldn't know what their doind to my mind

or heart

Whatever

Anyways

Suppose to be camping

Astronomy camp

RIGHT THIS MINUTE

Argh!

Me and my stupid body had to have a fever at the last mintue

And I skipped it

How could I?

What did I do?

Do I need to go on my knees and start begging random people?

Why?

Argh

Sherin better get me photos

Or it'll be the end of her life

I'll kill her myself

Monday leaving for holiday

Dreading it

Singapore is way way way more homey then anywhere else

-Lie-

Can't I stay here?

I want to just spend 1 day

No bad thoughts in my mind

No human relate to me

No friends I know existing

And anything else

Just

Pure

Shear

Freedom

And

Peace

Mind

Can't I have that?

No.

Apparently not.

I'll miss astronomy classes

All the crazy people

Sigh

I feel random

I think I am

I still have that essay to write

Oh well

Nothing is easy

And nothing ever changes

Especially

jwjk

Opps

I shouldn't have said that huh

...

Oh well

Blame the world won't get me anywhere

I still wish someone would be free enough to talk to me

A close friend would be nice

erm

Jwjk - but he's never there

Adam - I guess you could say in his own world

Who else...

Family - 100% not the kind who wanna talk to

Sherin - omg further than dream land

Holly? - Can't stand my negativity

Jayanne - Listening to metal music is a prized condition for her

Chris - No comment

Hui Han - None either

Rio? - Okaay to write his name I must be really desperate

I guess it all comes down to what I think

That's bad

My mind is telling me to

...

I shouldn't say it

It'll pop your eyes out

Quite literally I suppose

Sigh

I should get back to my old self

I wish the holidays are over

The stress work gives is

soo

Lovable

I mean I prefer that to this

Uncontrollable Condition

Bring on the A maths

I can't wait

._.

Back to work time

And

I'll try and change me my mood

You know

Negative = Positive

And take note I said mood

Not attitude

Self-confidence is something I will never attain

Never

Not unless I find the love of my life

Yeah right.

I bet dying would come way before that

Oh well

Moving on

Cya people around

Leaving Singapore and moving to Tsunami waters

Scuba diving!

And oh yeah

My quote of the day

Bring on the shackles

I'm your prisoner!

Hahas

Poke me [:

AND FOR SHERIN!

DO THE BUNNY xD

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:48 AM|

Thursday, June 18, 2009

[[Passion]]

I miss being whole these days

Like some part of me is missing

And I think I'm losing my memory

Parts of my memories seemed to have been erased

I don't feel different

I've always been like this

Maybe it's cause I haven't found who

I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with

Or maybe I have but I just don't see it

I feel

Like nothing's ever gonna change

Like I'm gonna keep schooling forever

But that's impossible right?

I swear

When I grow up

I'm gonna miss school like a little girl

I've been slacking more than ever

Because I feel so stressing and worked up

But

It's not working

I feel just the same

Like nothing is really going into my thick head

Maybe

Just maybe

I should give it all up

Whatever I've worked for

Think it's easy?

...

NO!

...

Sigh

Life is difficult isn't it?

And

I don't think much people understand me

I mean

this passage would be the closest they can get to

Erm

I guess my depression side

No one's perfect remember?

I should move on

With this

And get back to me work

...

Hmm

Really tempting

-not-

Oh well

All's well end's well

Time to move on

Cya you'll guys/girls around

I'm gonna be missing these days

Schedule

Friday - Church BBQ/Astronomy lesson

Saturday - Astronomy Camp

Sunday - Back from camp and pack up

Monday - Holiday trip with family

Tuesday - MIA

Wednesday - MIA

Thursday - MIA

Friday - MIA

Saturday - Girl Guides Carnival/Meet up for CIP project

Sunday - Last day of holidays

Monday - School starts/Holidays ends/Unleash my freedom

And take note

I'm bringing my maths homework

On my MIA trip

And cramming my study for a Chinese test on the last 2 days

Awesome huh

-Sarcastic remark-

I wholeheartedly agree

...

Oh well

When the Sun finally sets

And the Moon spreads across the sky

Let me know

I'll be by your side

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|4:58 AM|

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

[[I miss blogging]]

Okaay
so I'm multi-tasking at the moment
can't help it
the computer is too distracting
and I really need to do work
so now I'm doing both
o.o

Chris is super distracting!!!

must say

make him laugh

surprising

my msn today is flooding

weird ppl are talking to me

interesting

highly unusual

oh well

I really don't feel like doing anything

right now

and

I'm missing

Adam!

and

Hui Han!

I bet they don't read my blog though

life is kind of unfair

that's not surprising

oh well

back to work

cya

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:19 PM|

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