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Wednesday, August 6, 2008

[[Why have I been so unlike myself for the past few days/weeks/month ?]]

Why have I been so unlike myself for the past few days/weeks/month ?

This question is asked by MeiQing
Our special Girl Guide CL
after today's long and tiring
combine rehearsal of marching

Oh and MQ,
if you are reading this
don't take this question as an offence
you aren't the only one who says that
I'm not acting like m usual hyper self

Well,
for the past few days/weeks/month
Stress has been REALLY REALLY REALLY
catching on with me
And well here are some of the reasons what
is causing this stress and
some of the chain reations
Like:

- Marching Practise > non-stop staying back > no free time > sleep late
- CA Test Week > All free time used on studying > no time to have fun > sleep late
- Excursions > non-stop staying back > no free time > sleep late
- New subject Drama > non-stop staying back > sleep late
- Acumilated Stress > High fever > Can't concentrate
- Acumilated Stress > Get sick easily ( also sometimes leads to mental breakdown )
- Lack of sleep > late for school > DC > no time to eat lunch > only 2 meals a day
- Lack of time > No sleep > No play > No time for homework or work

And these are only some of my problems
Life hard isn't it ?

And if these are still not BIG enough to
convince you that I am having a hard time
Go ask KW, Charlene, Belle & Dez.
They all know what marching has done to me
they saw my face/expression

And yeah some of you will think that I'm
trying to give excuses for myself
but well,
think what you want to think
I speak the truth to those who care :)

And I'm no the kind of girl that can take so much pressure
Past experience tells the tale
And we do ALL fall at some time

And since most of you all don't even know my past
I want to proclaim that I have done some seriously whacked
stuff in my life
like

- Falling from the height of a 1.5 story building onto cement ground
- Got scars over the whole of my knees (both) and am still getting more
- Actually watch a funeral where NO ONE CRIED except me and the person married to the dead
Sad huh?

And if these reasons are STILL NOT ENOUGH
then what am I to say
or change the way you think ?

And one more thing
The reason for my mood swings
is the reason why I say I'm
- Split personality
- Anger Management Problems
- And Emo

ILYQ

P.S. For KahWieng = TOO BAD !!!!
I know if I told you I'll write on my blog about this
you would scream and say no but well I typed it before you could say
stop :)

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