[[*Fading To Black*]]

Thursday, July 9, 2009

[[Shudder]]

The Sun is gone.

The nights are long.

Do you know what it feels like

being alone?

That kinda reminds me of

VALENTINES DAY BY LINKIN PARK

I made it

while walking home

...

WELL

I take 15mins to walk home

you don't exactly think I'll be mute all the way~

Started singing randomly again

yay~

Anyways

IM IN LOVE WITH

LINKIN PARK

THEY HAVE AWESOME~~~ VOICES

WHOO

GO NEW DIVIDE (:

oh yeah

I LOVE AAR TOO

ALL AMERICAN REJECTS xD

And that's pretty much it

Jay and Sherin are soo gonna be disapointed

Jay'll probably scream at me

-WHAT ABOUT MY CHEM ROMANCE?!-

uh hur

ignoring~

Live is pretty much normal

A maths is depressing

E maths is now FINALLY associating with Physics

Physics Prac everyweek

-Which I am soo awesome at doing-

-Cause everyone else is too lazy to do-

-So i don't have to stay back for it-

English is well english

Chinese erm you know...

Chemistry is annoying now

surprise surprise

I hate Chem calculations

History is...

YESH WE ARE LEARNING ON HITLER NOW

YESH

I MEAN ADOLF HITLER

the awesome mad guy who decided to rule the world

hahhas

and he who have started World War 2

well

I like him for his guts

and seriously

If we had one leader ruling the whole earth

-all the countries-

then we wouldn't fight much

we wouldn't have to kill

we wouldn't have to have currency complications

no depression cause everyone is helping each other

lots of positive sides

mind you

just that

HITLER IS EVIL

and that makes him erm

you know

Go down in history~

anyways

Social Studies is okaay

Drama is as stress as ever

and thats about it

...

My social life?

Wah?

What about it?

It's just plain as ever

Human friends

No other people in my life

the usual

You don't get much surprises if you are me

...

I'm suppose to be studying

for an English test

and for Chinese test

and my homework

but as you can see

-or read-

I'm not

I need like erm persuasion

too bad

No one's free to do it

Oh well

Back to work

I'm suppose to be GUAI~ after all

says my new di (:

well

Cya around then

roar!~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|3:56 AM|

Friday, July 3, 2009

[[Rejected]]

Okaay

Wanna know what I've been doing lately?

I've been slacking alot

hell yea

I practically copied most of my

math homework from everyone else!

and

I'M SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA

YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING IT IS?

I CAN'T SLEEP

AT ALL

I PRACTICALLY SLEPT IN CLASS

and I'm gonna kill my body at this rate huh?

Well

I skipped lunch today

again about the no mood thing

I bet if i did what i wanted since young

I probably have killed myself

how?

1-Jump down the building

you know the usually suicide mad stuff

2-killed my mind off

you know people die of depression

stress or overwork and no food thing?

yea

that's exactly what i meant

oh well

It's not sooooo bad i guess

I'm still alive

-apparently-

AND

I'M MAD!

I'M SPENDING MONEY

LIKE I HAVE MILLIONS xD

-I don't-

ON!!!!

BOOKS :D

AND I BLAME NESSA!

ALL YOUR FAULT NESSSA!

YOU GOT ME ADDICTED AGAIN!

ARGH!

Okaay that's not totally the truth

I mean

in the middle of the night

What do you wanna do?

stare out the window till the dark sky freaks you out?

I don't think so!

Sooo

I read

right there

on my make-shift bed in the living room

-a mattress on the floor-

-no it's not comfortable-

And I read

I miss reading

I love reading

Something no one can take away from me

Probably the ONLY thing they can't

I mean they can take away knowledge but not your

PERSONAL~

feelings right?

right?

erm right?

damn

I'm wrong aren't I?

oh well

Back to the erm normal

...

I'm bored

I mean I got TONS OF WORK

but no one to help

no one to teach

no one to talk to

It's really killing me all this time

alone.

Hahahas

yea right I'm gonna fall head over heels for a guy

I think I'll drown first

by accident

-Almost impossible to happen-

-I'm a goldstar swimmie-

Where was I?

Before~ the alone thingy

and the book

and the

erm nvm

I'll start on something else

....

I'm hungry

......

WOW THAT HELPED!

WTH!

And back again

=.=

I think I'll go find food

yup yup i better

my body has already been tortured enough

I'm

erm well

signing off for now

>.<

Anyways the only thing I wanna

literally YELL to the world~

IS THERE ANYONE WHO ACTUALLY LIKES ME?

And I will here crickets

you know

dead quiet~

oh well

What goes around comes around

cya~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|2:07 AM|

Saturday, June 20, 2009

[[Busted]]

And

I think I'm losing it

My being not-prone-to-being-sick habit

I mean

I don't get sick the normal way

the way normal humans do

Well

Actually I do but I'm more or less prone to it

I get sick by

Stress or lack of sleep or even crying too much

dumb huh?

I must be the weirdest kid on Earth

Correction.

Weirdest kid in the universe

And far far beyond that

My head is killing me

Panadols don't work anymore

I'm sleep deprived

And over worked

And emotionally stressed

apparently

I have people to blame for it

Shan't mention

They wouldn't know what their doind to my mind

or heart

Whatever

Anyways

Suppose to be camping

Astronomy camp

RIGHT THIS MINUTE

Argh!

Me and my stupid body had to have a fever at the last mintue

And I skipped it

How could I?

What did I do?

Do I need to go on my knees and start begging random people?

Why?

Argh

Sherin better get me photos

Or it'll be the end of her life

I'll kill her myself

Monday leaving for holiday

Dreading it

Singapore is way way way more homey then anywhere else

-Lie-

Can't I stay here?

I want to just spend 1 day

No bad thoughts in my mind

No human relate to me

No friends I know existing

And anything else

Just

Pure

Shear

Freedom

And

Peace

Mind

Can't I have that?

No.

Apparently not.

I'll miss astronomy classes

All the crazy people

Sigh

I feel random

I think I am

I still have that essay to write

Oh well

Nothing is easy

And nothing ever changes

Especially

jwjk

Opps

I shouldn't have said that huh

...

Oh well

Blame the world won't get me anywhere

I still wish someone would be free enough to talk to me

A close friend would be nice

erm

Jwjk - but he's never there

Adam - I guess you could say in his own world

Who else...

Family - 100% not the kind who wanna talk to

Sherin - omg further than dream land

Holly? - Can't stand my negativity

Jayanne - Listening to metal music is a prized condition for her

Chris - No comment

Hui Han - None either

Rio? - Okaay to write his name I must be really desperate

I guess it all comes down to what I think

That's bad

My mind is telling me to

...

I shouldn't say it

It'll pop your eyes out

Quite literally I suppose

Sigh

I should get back to my old self

I wish the holidays are over

The stress work gives is

soo

Lovable

I mean I prefer that to this

Uncontrollable Condition

Bring on the A maths

I can't wait

._.

Back to work time

And

I'll try and change me my mood

You know

Negative = Positive

And take note I said mood

Not attitude

Self-confidence is something I will never attain

Never

Not unless I find the love of my life

Yeah right.

I bet dying would come way before that

Oh well

Moving on

Cya people around

Leaving Singapore and moving to Tsunami waters

Scuba diving!

And oh yeah

My quote of the day

Bring on the shackles

I'm your prisoner!

Hahas

Poke me [:

AND FOR SHERIN!

DO THE BUNNY xD

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:48 AM|

Thursday, June 18, 2009

[[Passion]]

I miss being whole these days

Like some part of me is missing

And I think I'm losing my memory

Parts of my memories seemed to have been erased

I don't feel different

I've always been like this

Maybe it's cause I haven't found who

I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with

Or maybe I have but I just don't see it

I feel

Like nothing's ever gonna change

Like I'm gonna keep schooling forever

But that's impossible right?

I swear

When I grow up

I'm gonna miss school like a little girl

I've been slacking more than ever

Because I feel so stressing and worked up

But

It's not working

I feel just the same

Like nothing is really going into my thick head

Maybe

Just maybe

I should give it all up

Whatever I've worked for

Think it's easy?

...

NO!

...

Sigh

Life is difficult isn't it?

And

I don't think much people understand me

I mean

this passage would be the closest they can get to

Erm

I guess my depression side

No one's perfect remember?

I should move on

With this

And get back to me work

...

Hmm

Really tempting

-not-

Oh well

All's well end's well

Time to move on

Cya you'll guys/girls around

I'm gonna be missing these days

Schedule

Friday - Church BBQ/Astronomy lesson

Saturday - Astronomy Camp

Sunday - Back from camp and pack up

Monday - Holiday trip with family

Tuesday - MIA

Wednesday - MIA

Thursday - MIA

Friday - MIA

Saturday - Girl Guides Carnival/Meet up for CIP project

Sunday - Last day of holidays

Monday - School starts/Holidays ends/Unleash my freedom

And take note

I'm bringing my maths homework

On my MIA trip

And cramming my study for a Chinese test on the last 2 days

Awesome huh

-Sarcastic remark-

I wholeheartedly agree

...

Oh well

When the Sun finally sets

And the Moon spreads across the sky

Let me know

I'll be by your side

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|4:58 AM|

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

[[I miss blogging]]

Okaay
so I'm multi-tasking at the moment
can't help it
the computer is too distracting
and I really need to do work
so now I'm doing both
o.o

Chris is super distracting!!!

must say

make him laugh

surprising

my msn today is flooding

weird ppl are talking to me

interesting

highly unusual

oh well

I really don't feel like doing anything

right now

and

I'm missing

Adam!

and

Hui Han!

I bet they don't read my blog though

life is kind of unfair

that's not surprising

oh well

back to work

cya

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:19 PM|

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

[[Post-exam stress]]

AHH

Exams are over

Well not really

I think I need a psychologist

Everytime I see the word maths

Or anything to do with that matter

straight pops out

POLYNOMIALS

and OMG it's annoying

can't get it out

even on my marking day I decide to study physics

I need medication

extreme doses of panadol

argh

and I'm getting really bored

even on the comp

or phone talking to random people

i still am bored!

Nessa faster plan I wanna go out NOW!

Anyone can drag me out for no reason

please do

Just not free on Saturdays Fridays and Wednesdays

Wait why?

Oh cause of

astronomy - girl guides - drama

they do take up alot of time if you must know

Right

I need friends to come online and talk to me

But really no one does

jwjk is studying

sherin is always either really hyper or really emo

so it's really freaky to talk to her

jay-anne eh no way

nessa dosen't have msn

adam barely comes on

so those hui han

chris is always busy

claire is forever going out

(and leaving me behind)

rio erm always busy too

joleen is running

sad huh ><

talk about being left alone

tried to call sherin and guess what?

she's still sleeping

when I woke up at 7 am today

unable to lie down on my bed

I probably should go find something else to do

Oh well

Hope I don't kill myself trying

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:45 AM|

Monday, May 18, 2009

[[MYE Drama]]

This one's the best

Had time left

Hand wasn't SO pain

Answers written so long~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:07 PM|

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